Nebulous

Nebulous...... I had actually never heard the word before, until a very close personal friend of over 20 years used it encapsulate me..... Vague, Unsure, without limits...... I believe i made my friend feel that i may had been upset over the description, but attempted to give assurance that if i were to accept such an observation from anyone,.... it would be easiest to accept from a friend that I trust. And trust this friend I do.
Of course I now have something interesting to blog about today.... Its sometimes important to have a grasp on how those that are closest to us,... see us. If we rely solely on how we feel we may be missing a piece of the big picture. How others see us, especially those who's observations we desire and respect carries weight.
My friend knows about the year i have had... its been a hard one,... and i made it a point to ask if they could still see the real "me"... the person they have come to care for and understand in spite of everything i have been through. I was reassured when they answered "yes".
So... I know I'm still here.. still standing...head above water.

Sometimes a little truth is a welcome thing.
I think i am resolving though.... to no longer come across as "Nebulous"
Thanks.

One Small Step

Ive found myself in an unfamiliar place.....attempting to make sense of a lot of things.....at a point in my life where change can be both frightening, and inspiring. As i sit here and type i realize that the only way to really get this to take off would be to post from the gut... leave everything on the table.... put it all out there. "If it bleeds it leads". ... Perhaps so...
For now.. I'm trying this on for size.. a place to begin voicing my tests and trials during a difficult point in my life. As i become more comfortable I'll be more frank.... more forthcoming. Small steps are a good start.
I intend to begin posting information i gather as i make a decision between choosing a certification path..... or pursuing a Masters. I need to do one or the other i believe... or perhaps someone will change my mind.... Only time will tell.

More to come.